Happy Anniversary!!!

Just wanted to tell my wonderful husband! How much I love him and how thankful I am to have him as my friend and partner. I couldn't have made it through anything without you Jason!! Two years down and forever to go! I love ya. This is a picture of us from our wedding day in vegas with my mom and dad! We were married at the Luxor and all our family was there, we had a great time and I won the best prize of all in vegas that day, which of course was my husband! Happy Anniversary!

Twin Power

We have the twins with us till Wednesday! Yay!! So I headed off to Micheals today and got them some fun craft christmas items that we could make while it was snowing outside. Everything they saw they said was CUTE!! They told me they loved this white Christmas Tree that is 14 inches high so I had to buy it. I have been to Micheals twice in the past few weeks and I thought everyone would be proud of me. Here are the pictures of the tree and spoons they made today. Needless to say Jason and I had the snowman spoon and gingerbread spoon following us all evening. The spoons helped me cook dinner, and they jumped on jason shoulders all night and the walls have had a great experience with them also. Oh how fun to have two angels show us the fun of the season!

My Muskie Man!!!

I had to post the other members of our family, whom Jason gets to visit every weekend at Pineview Resevior. These fish have more say than I do. Jason and his friend are the champion muskie fisherman in Utah. Jason caught the first fish this past weekend, but the one he is famous for is the bottom pictures which was a tiger muskie that was 50 plus inches long this summer. I am very proud of him. I love him and the fish do too!! I could post a whole other blog on just the fish he catches, but thought I would limit it to two!!

Beautiful Fall Day in Utah

Here Fishy Fishy!!!!!

Today Jason and I went around the corner from our apartment and fished Cottonwood Creek. After being stuck in the house the past few weeks the walls were starting to get closer and I had to get out and get some fresh air. Jason who is the real fisherman helped me catch a few, and I also ran into a snake. Ahhhhhhh the great outdoors!

Yo, Ho a Pirates Life For Me!!!

I had to show everyone our cute Pirates for Halloween. Although we didn't get them to go trick or treating with, their mom sent us a cute picture of them before they headed out on their adventure. Greta doesn't look to happy with the lip sticking out, but I must say they are the cutest Pirates around. We sure miss them! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Another Angel

I just wanted to thank Chrissy and Diane (libby and Addie) for coming to my grandmas viewing. I love you guys so much and appreciate you doing that for me. I want my grandma to know I love her and will miss her. I know that she is happy being with my grandpa again. I am thankful for the peace that I have that my son and her are having a good time together. I love you grandma and you will be with me forever! Miss you.

Hard Times

I am so sorry we didn't get to the park with Chrissy, Diane and kids. We so looked forward to it. Well when it rains it pours. On Friday of last week I went to a different doc at the UofU to help me find out what happened during my pregnancy. Found I have fibroids on my uterus and that is what the doc thinks happened to the placenta not working right. Finally I get an answer to what is going on. Now it looks like surgery for me to remove them. Trust your instincts with doc and always get a second opinion. My first doc wouldn't check and I knew something was wrong. Also last friday Grandma dunbar went in had surgery on her heart and they weren't able to fix her fibrilation and they found two more not repairable. Needless to say we are worried she is on oxygen having a hard time and my poor dad is struggling. That was just friday and that was only the beginning of this horrible week.

On Monday my grandma pack fell and broke her hip. I ran up to Logan and stayed with her after the surgery and knew we were in for a battle and that she wasn't going to be the same. The grandma that held my hand my whole life now needs my hand to help her. I sat and held her hand for four hours while she lay lifeless struggling to breathe and watching her blood pressure drop. I thought how do I lose my grandma now that I just lost my son. I talked to her and talked about all the good memories we had with each other. The doctors came in talking to me expecting the worst. She gradually came to but wasn't the grandma I knew. She was confused but got my name out saying, "tami". I cried she knew I was there and thats all I needed. I want to thank my husband who came to my side again to help me with another struggle. Thanks babe for loving me and being there for me. We have witnesses so much of life and death lately I really can't handle anymore. He helps me so much and shows me what life is all about. LOVE and FAMILY! You are the best Jason. Jason and I left around eleven on Monday night and stayed in Roy and my wonderful mom in laws house where they took care of the girls for us. The next day I went to airport to pick up my mom and drove back to logan. My grandma made it through the night and was glad to see my mom yesterday.
Today I ran back up to Logan and visited my mom and grandma. Grandma is not doing well. She can't talk, she is confused, kidneys are not working, she has ammonia(I can't spell that sorry) and has a lot of strikes against her right now. Her quality of life will never be the same. It breaks my heart to see her slipping away from the grandma I knew. I know god has a plan for all and I will accept it if he takes my grandma cause I don't want her in pain and I would love to see the smile on my grandpa's face when he is with her again. Thanks to everyone for love and support. I will keep everyone posted on what happens to my grams.

The best part about my life is my family. When I married Jason I not only got him but the two cutest twin girls you will ever meet. I love my two step daughters Greta and Grace. They bring so much happiness to our lives. I have had a blast with them and this summer we get to have them for 3 weeks. We had them the last part of July for a week. We went to Park City to have a little family get together. They got to be with my parents and grandparents on both sides of my family. What a treat it was for me to show them off and how cute they are. To see my family with them makes me so happy. Mom and Dad had a blast with them and Greta and Grace call my mom grandma and my dad grandma scott they say his name the best. We took the girls on the rides up by the alpine slide. We usually get them at least 2 weekends a month from friday till monday. They live in Wyoming, and I so wish they were closer to us cause I miss them so much. You all know my mom kept my toys from when I was young, so she has sent me my toys I used to play with for Greta and Grace. How fun it is to play with my little ponys again and see them playing with my toys brings back the happy days of my childhood. I can't tell you how much I love these two little girls. Them and Jason are my life. I feel so lucky to have them and they are so well behaved and smart. Yes Jason and I now sing crazy kids songs around the house, but being parents to these to little ones are what happiness is all about!!

Hey Everyone! Yes I am finally blogging! I just wanted to let everyone know what we are up too these days and how we are doing. We started the year off right by going to california and Vegas in January! We had tons of fun! We found out that we were going to be parents on Valentine's Day this year so we really thought this was going to be a great year with a new baby on the way! I had a lot of complications during the pregnancy and our life changed forever on June 15th when I had our little boy who did not make. I was six months pregnant and lost the baby due to a placental abruption, infection, and leaking amniotic fluid. It was a nightmare for us to lose our son that we were so excited about having join our family. It is a HUGE loss for us but I have to tell you all I have the most amazing husband in the world that stood by my side through it all and gave me the strength to make it through. I don't know what I would do without him and he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. We are making through this hard period by realizing how lucky we are to have each other, our family, our friends, and the short time we had with our son. This process has made me realize how short life is, how quickly it can change, and that sometimes you have to say goodbye before you say hello, and that all things happen for a reason although we don't know why or how. I cherish memories of our little guy punching me and hiccuping in me. He was a real trooper with a great personality like his dad. We both struggled through it all and not getting the outcome we all wanted. I thank all of you who helped us through it all. Heaven has an angel, not just any angel but our son. I know he is safe and in good hands up there watching us and helping us through the hard times in our lives. I will always love him and miss him in our family everyday, but I am thankful I had him and got to see what Jason and I created, a wonderful perfect little boy!

Husband and I in Cali